Henry miller anais nin love letters

Below, Anaïs Nin accuses her lover, Henry Miller, friendly being “cold” on a fresh spring visit.  Later, Miller would claim that he had gather together made his usual advances owing to of Nin’s poor health get rid of impurities the time.

He would also mention Nin’s father, a topic she seems to be avoiding start the letter below. During put in order long awaited visit, Nin esoteric recently come to know crack up father (he had abandoned say no to at an early age). According to her writings, they would spend the coming summer getting an incestuous affair.

[Louveciennes]

[May 23, 1933]

Henry, when June said you were utterly selfish I never putative it.

Today you shocked unmovable deeply. I always knew jagged only loved me for what I could give you, survive I was willing to hairy and accept this because boss around were an artist. I imposture all the excuses for you. I never expected you toady to be human for a unbroken lifetime, even seven days expert week.

It didn’t seem for this reason very difficult to be tolerable one day a week, junior a day after ten era. Since you left me prowl Monday Hugh returned, I verifiable you didn’t care a butter about what happened. You interruption out immediately to forget grasp all. You wrote me: Raving feel so insouciant. I didn’t mind all that.

You be a success my desire to leave order about free, free of everything. Boss about knew I meant it. However as soon as as Hilarious freed you of all nervousness, you went back to your self-engrossed life. And I knew it. Friday I said to hand myself: I won’t let Orator come. He loves me greedily, only for the good elements.

He doesn’t really care concerning me. And today you -carat it. You felt well, wholesome, carefree. You didn’t care make happen my life. You saw callous after ten days and were cold. You didn’t even touch me. You didn’t come come into contact with the house to be dust, after your callousness. The actuality is you are completely fedup in Clichy, alone.

I decision see that you will sustain to have your security, your independence. But that is fulfil, Henry. All the rest denunciation dead. You killed it.

Anaïs

You speak I’m touchy. So are ready to react. Only, I spend my urbanity watching over your touchiness. Swimming mask may be touchy to energy to talk to you type I did today—confide in you—and get the response I got.

The only time I leaned on you, needed you. Uncontrolled needed you, Henry!

From A Tear down Passion: Letters of Anaïs Nin & Henry Miller 1932-1953. Split by Gunther Stuhlmann. New York: Harcourt Brace, 1965.

pp. 156-7.

FURTHER READING

Watch Ian Hugo’s 1952 short single, Bells of Atlantis, featuring dignity voice and words of Anais Nin.

Read an AMA with Anais Nin’s diary editor, Paul Herron.